If You're Not The One
Songwriters: Bedingfield, Daniel;

If you're not the one, then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one, then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine, then why does your heart return my call?
If you you are not mine, would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you, then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you, then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me, then why does this distance name my life?
If you're not for me, then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray that you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss your body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breath you into my heart
And I pray for the strength to stand today

'Cause I love you whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And though my heart is by your side

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

Dear my Darling ^^,

There are billions of ways to show love to a special someone...
Hope you feel it as I do it my way...

I don't sometimes really dare to say I LOVE YOU ...
To me, the word 'Love' is like a strong commitment for you and me...
I believe you might feel it is too strong for our relationship...
But anyway I want to let you know that I dare to do things to make you feel 'LOVED'.

Please think of me, care my feeling and be careful with my heart...

Wish our love bond is tied with love more and more tightly each day.
Happy Our 3rd Anniversary!
<3 with love, kisses and higs,
Your Sweetheart! >3<,,

I wouldn't know that I would love you this much ...

On 7th February in the evening ... 

It was the day.
The day that everything turned out .. The ugliest truth.

I came back from my part-time job and headed to the skytrain station that he always drove to pick me up...
Usually, I'd call him 2 stations before I reached our station and he'd be there waiting for me.
This day, he called me 3 stations before our station .. but he wasn't there when I arrived.
I didn't know what he was doing, but when I called, he was still home...

It was fine...
I told him I'd be waiting at the bus-stop at the end of the bridge.

While I was walking out of the skytrain station, I reckoned the weather ... so windy ...
The sky wasn't blue or even dark blue as it supposed to be on a normal day.
It was darkblue-grey...

On the bridge where it used to be crowded with the passengers hurrying to go back home was no sign of others but me.
So ... I walked slowly alone ... I don't like this atmosphere ... It seemed like some kind of bad signs ...
I walked alone and felt lonely at times ... so lonely that I wondered where my boyfriend was and did he do his job as my special someone who would always be by my side ...

Still no one ...

loneliness had covered all the area I was walking until I sat on the bench at the bus-stop.
He still didn't come...

I wished he came earlier,, wished I didn't feel this kind of weather ...

I looked around and minded the weather ... it wasn't cool and chill but cold and lonely ...

yes ... I guessed it's the sign ... bad signs.

 

When my loved one came, he passed where I was sitting. Well, that's fine, because I didn't dress like usual and Ii was glad I wasn't alone anymore ..

We went to have dinner at our favourite noodle place ... it seemed weird ... there was almost no sign of care for me ...

Then the drama began, when his girl friend called. I sensed something unusual in his action and voice, as I said hi to that phone, the one he tried to keep away from me

I asked him to stop the car... shut the door ... and was left there in the middle of dark long road ...

I called his girl friend ... the truth turned out that he didnt break up with his girlfriend and the story about stabbing back by his guy friend was the made-up drama.

Fair enough ...

no one was kidding ,, I wish it was ... I really wish it was ...

He told me I didn't have to do anything ...
but being like a secret girlfriend isn't my thing ... isn't what I supposed to be.

Do you really care me,, do you really love me,, am I the only one,, can I be the only one?

 

I wouldn't know that I would love you this much ... and I wouldn't know that you would hurt me this much ...